[[*my 6 cents worth]]

Friday, March 31, 2006

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I read a book called 'The curious Incident of the Dog in the night time'..

and somewhere off page 87 there's a line that reads..

'Loving someone is helping them when they get into trouble..and looking after them..and telling them the truth..'

I don't know how true it is but i must agree when it was said that you tell the truth to people you love..

*the post might not read on well..cause' it was edited..certain stuff were taken out due to privacy*

another 6 cents thoughts at|3/31/2006 12:28:00 PM|

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

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i can never love another person so much..

cause i love him too much..

what i didn't know was that..

someone would break into my relationship..

jus like how i broke into his broken relationship..

i took a chance when her guard was down..

and threw all right logic out..

i blame no one for this predicament..

it might be a bad kharma..

i chose to do wrong..

even when i could have done right..

i gave in to my selfish emotions..

i chose to choose emotions over morality..

and let it rule over logic..

*the post might not read on well..cause' it was edited..certain stuff were taken out due to privacy*

another 6 cents thoughts at|3/21/2006 12:57:00 PM|

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

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it has been a long long time since I last put on my lenses..

ever since i found out about the ReNu lenses solution that has gone haywire..

i simply stopped using lenses and started putting on the specs..

and today i am just so in the mood for lenses...

i guess it's time to look pretty again...

or supposedly pretty..

after a long time of specs..

shall be wearing them to work later..

was looking for videos and nice songs on youtube..

but it's kind of disappointing..

there's just not much new ones...

and the older ones are like taking Forever to load..

no kidding..

i don't know how long i can take the waiting..

and so..

i typed in the Search box ...'Feng'..

ta da...

fast loading speed and a nice song too...

good for those who are just looking for a depressing and heartbreaking song..

but it has it's meaning too...

very nice mv..

check it out..

i kind of like the last part that goes..

'wo yao de zhi shi ni zai wo shen bian'...

in English..

it simply means..

'All i ever wanted was to have you by my side'..

touching...sob..sob..

hmm...

tonight's gona be kind of busy...will be expecting myself to knock off work in the noon..

hope everything goes alright...

gotta go rest though...

good nightz..

*the post might not read on well..cause' it was edited..certain stuff were taken out due to privacy*

another 6 cents thoughts at|3/15/2006 01:18:00 PM|

Monday, March 13, 2006

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I see you next to Never..

I know we can never be Together..

For All those Heartaches..

It truly makes my Heart Break..

Everytime I try..

I know I can Never make it Right..

another 6 cents thoughts at|3/13/2006 09:02:00 PM|

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another 6 cents thoughts at|3/13/2006 08:43:00 PM|

Sunday, March 12, 2006

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sometimes i wonder....

what have i done wrong?

what have i not done right?

what have i not done or do enough to make you stay?

what have i done to not even deserve you to glance or even say a simple 'hi' to me?

was i that bad?

or just ain't that good enough?

you made your stand extremely clear...

you and me are seperate by a DISTANCE..

the harder i pull..

the harder you push..

the nearer i wish to get..

the further you go..

i don't understand..

am i that incomparable to the new girl in your life that you can't even make a space to even smile and say hi..

am i that terrible to have you treat me like the world's most Perfect Stranger?

like we've never loved or even knew each other..

everytime he's around..

i feel the awkward...

i feel the tension..

i feel the emotions that comes over me whenever he's around..

for once..

i feel my heart mind and body experience a kind of discomfort and depression that worked so well together to bring out sadness..

flashes of memories...

the words that was once said...

just came rushing back like some big tidal waves..

he made his point more than clear...

as long as he and i exist..

we should not even bother about acknowledging each other's presence...

what more should i even hope..

why is it that other people have a second chance and i have none?

i have not done anything wrong or unfaithful behind his back..

i truly love him..

for him..

i am willing to do anything...

if he's willing to return..

i promise not to ask any questions...

neither would i rake up the past or even question why...

but why do i still get nothing for all these?

others wait and they get what they want...

happily ever after...

but it does not apply to me..

i seem to be lacking in something forever..

no matter how hard i work..

it's like he'll work just as hard to push me away..

all i ever asked for was for you to come back to me..

all i ever needed was to hold your hands one more time..

all i ever waned was to have you by my side..

*the post might not read on well..cause' it was edited..certain stuff were taken out due to privacy*

another 6 cents thoughts at|3/12/2006 06:23:00 PM|

Saturday, March 11, 2006

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no one could ever replace Mark...

and not that i was looking for one in the first place...

everytime this issue comes to mind..

i would think of Mark...

he once meant a lot and still do...

despite all the shitty stuff he did..

despite all the bad memories...

i still have a special place in my heart for him...

i know how people would always tell me to stop all these liking for him cause..'it ain't worth it'..'he's just not for you'..'you and him are not together for very long'...'it's maybe a fling'..

i know that we can't be together...

i might be stupid but i ain't dumb...

i know i still love him lots and if one day he needs me..i'll be there no matter what..

but i also know in reality...

our relationship stops at being the perfect strangers...

i don't blame him...

i choose to believe in him...

i believe in the lies he once told me...

cause' i choose to..

but i know we can never salvage back the broken pieces...

he'll never love me the same way he once did..

he'll never tell me in the way the special 3 words..

and i know i am stupid to put a setting in my hp..

that whenever he calls...

the melody of 'Everyday i love you' would ring...

since the day he left..

i never changed that setting...

never did i once touched it too...

cause' i was thinking that he might just call one dayand just in case he did...

i would answer the call faster...

so that i can hear his voice and know why he called...

it is a stupid act...no doubt...

but that setting has been like that since a year ago...

i ain't changing it...

and the letters that i promptly wrote for him on his birthday...on Valentine's Day...on special days...

all kept neatly in a box...

i ain't gonna throw it away...

maybe one day when i get married to someone else and decide that i would give away the memories...

then i shall give it back to him...

to the rightful owner...

to let him know just how much he means...

and all these are but...

a passing thought...

*the post might not read on well..cause' it was edited..certain stuff were taken out due to privacy*

another 6 cents thoughts at|3/11/2006 12:04:00 PM|

Monday, March 06, 2006

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yep...

my 6 cents worth...

reason for this nick is because my lucky number is 6...

and to me...

i just needed another private space to blog about my very own thoughts that no one except for myself knows...

i just needed a space that is somewhere out there but yet within....

someplace that only i know my true identity...

somewhere that only strangers know who i truly am...

another 6 cents thoughts at|3/06/2006 08:32:00 PM|