[[*my 6 cents worth]]

Saturday, March 11, 2006

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no one could ever replace Mark...

and not that i was looking for one in the first place...

everytime this issue comes to mind..

i would think of Mark...

he once meant a lot and still do...

despite all the shitty stuff he did..

despite all the bad memories...

i still have a special place in my heart for him...

i know how people would always tell me to stop all these liking for him cause..'it ain't worth it'..'he's just not for you'..'you and him are not together for very long'...'it's maybe a fling'..

i know that we can't be together...

i might be stupid but i ain't dumb...

i know i still love him lots and if one day he needs me..i'll be there no matter what..

but i also know in reality...

our relationship stops at being the perfect strangers...

i don't blame him...

i choose to believe in him...

i believe in the lies he once told me...

cause' i choose to..

but i know we can never salvage back the broken pieces...

he'll never love me the same way he once did..

he'll never tell me in the way the special 3 words..

and i know i am stupid to put a setting in my hp..

that whenever he calls...

the melody of 'Everyday i love you' would ring...

since the day he left..

i never changed that setting...

never did i once touched it too...

cause' i was thinking that he might just call one dayand just in case he did...

i would answer the call faster...

so that i can hear his voice and know why he called...

it is a stupid act...no doubt...

but that setting has been like that since a year ago...

i ain't changing it...

and the letters that i promptly wrote for him on his birthday...on Valentine's Day...on special days...

all kept neatly in a box...

i ain't gonna throw it away...

maybe one day when i get married to someone else and decide that i would give away the memories...

then i shall give it back to him...

to the rightful owner...

to let him know just how much he means...

and all these are but...

a passing thought...

*the post might not read on well..cause' it was edited..certain stuff were taken out due to privacy*

another 6 cents thoughts at|3/11/2006 12:04:00 PM|

[[ The Writer... ]]

a Simple SomeOne..
who Hides behind a Mask called..
'6 Cents Worth'..
for a Space called my Own...
Somewhere out there but yet Within...

[[ The Writer's Note... ]]

Here is e deepest Secret nobody knows..
Here is e Root of e Root..
And e Bud of e Bud..
And e Sky of e Sky..
Of a Tree Called Life..
Which grows Higher..
Than e Soul can Hope or Mind can Hide..
N dis is e Wonder tt's Keepin e Stars Apart..
I Carry Your Heart..
I Carry It in My Heart..

[[ My Loves and Hates ]]

I Love the simple pleasures in Life..
And I basically hate Nothin' actually..
Cause' I choose Happiness in e beginning..
And Every Happiness brings with it..
Unhappiness..
But it is with Unhappiness..
That you learn about..
True Happiness..

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