[[*my 6 cents worth]]

Sunday, March 12, 2006

______________________________

sometimes i wonder....

what have i done wrong?

what have i not done right?

what have i not done or do enough to make you stay?

what have i done to not even deserve you to glance or even say a simple 'hi' to me?

was i that bad?

or just ain't that good enough?

you made your stand extremely clear...

you and me are seperate by a DISTANCE..

the harder i pull..

the harder you push..

the nearer i wish to get..

the further you go..

i don't understand..

am i that incomparable to the new girl in your life that you can't even make a space to even smile and say hi..

am i that terrible to have you treat me like the world's most Perfect Stranger?

like we've never loved or even knew each other..

everytime he's around..

i feel the awkward...

i feel the tension..

i feel the emotions that comes over me whenever he's around..

for once..

i feel my heart mind and body experience a kind of discomfort and depression that worked so well together to bring out sadness..

flashes of memories...

the words that was once said...

just came rushing back like some big tidal waves..

he made his point more than clear...

as long as he and i exist..

we should not even bother about acknowledging each other's presence...

what more should i even hope..

why is it that other people have a second chance and i have none?

i have not done anything wrong or unfaithful behind his back..

i truly love him..

for him..

i am willing to do anything...

if he's willing to return..

i promise not to ask any questions...

neither would i rake up the past or even question why...

but why do i still get nothing for all these?

others wait and they get what they want...

happily ever after...

but it does not apply to me..

i seem to be lacking in something forever..

no matter how hard i work..

it's like he'll work just as hard to push me away..

all i ever asked for was for you to come back to me..

all i ever needed was to hold your hands one more time..

all i ever waned was to have you by my side..

*the post might not read on well..cause' it was edited..certain stuff were taken out due to privacy*

another 6 cents thoughts at|3/12/2006 06:23:00 PM|

[[ The Writer... ]]

a Simple SomeOne..
who Hides behind a Mask called..
'6 Cents Worth'..
for a Space called my Own...
Somewhere out there but yet Within...

[[ The Writer's Note... ]]

Here is e deepest Secret nobody knows..
Here is e Root of e Root..
And e Bud of e Bud..
And e Sky of e Sky..
Of a Tree Called Life..
Which grows Higher..
Than e Soul can Hope or Mind can Hide..
N dis is e Wonder tt's Keepin e Stars Apart..
I Carry Your Heart..
I Carry It in My Heart..

[[ My Loves and Hates ]]

I Love the simple pleasures in Life..
And I basically hate Nothin' actually..
Cause' I choose Happiness in e beginning..
And Every Happiness brings with it..
Unhappiness..
But it is with Unhappiness..
That you learn about..
True Happiness..

[[ Music's Playing ]]

Artist: Gong Shi Jia
Song: Zai Yi Ci Yong You

[[ My History ]]

[[ The Conversations ]]

[[ WorthAClick ]]

[[ Credits ]]