[[*my 6 cents worth]]

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

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i feel sorry for myself..

for being unable to forget you..

for being so pathetic..

and for still being so concern about you that even a mere mention of your name makes a difference..

i am gonna have to see you again some time soon..

i am not exactly feeling good neither am i feeling short..

a part of me just thought of the awkwardness while a part of me have doubts of whether you would even turn up in the first place..

i feel kind of lost whenever people talk about you..

not to mention, seeing you face to face..

time have passed..

it might have brought away some pain and tears..

but the leftovers were never cleared from my view or heart..

every night i still bear the scars of a painful memory and the thoughts of someone so near yet so far away..

heartbreaking might be an appropriate word to use..

if not, i could not find any other..

am i holding on too much to you or am i just unwilling to move on from you?

someone who was once interested in me seemed to be attached now..

i am happy for him..

and no.....i ain't upset at all..

neither have i once thought about what would have been if i wasn't so persistent in you..

i wasn't even at the least sad for myself.

i was just happy for him.

and even if i did wonder about something..

it was whether this persistence of mine would pay off or would it just depreciate over time..

i have problems holding on cause' every night i think of how far i can go on..

i still walk the same place you once did with me..

i still eat the same food we once had..

i am still the same person who told you that some things are worth working for..

but tiredness is setting in on me.

i fear that i might not have time for you anymore.

i fear that i might be gone even before i reach the light at the end of the tunnel.

i ain't giving you any pressure..

neither am i hoping much..

i used to think that i might have held on so much cause' i had wanted to know the truth of why you left me..

but now..i don't even know what's making me stay.

what used to hurt most was not knowing why you left..

but now, what hurt most is having to see you face to face and yet pretend that nothing had happenened..

i look at the things and people that matters most..

and i would always find you somewhere within my heart.

another 6 cents thoughts at|7/19/2006 05:16:00 PM|

[[ The Writer... ]]

a Simple SomeOne..
who Hides behind a Mask called..
'6 Cents Worth'..
for a Space called my Own...
Somewhere out there but yet Within...

[[ The Writer's Note... ]]

Here is e deepest Secret nobody knows..
Here is e Root of e Root..
And e Bud of e Bud..
And e Sky of e Sky..
Of a Tree Called Life..
Which grows Higher..
Than e Soul can Hope or Mind can Hide..
N dis is e Wonder tt's Keepin e Stars Apart..
I Carry Your Heart..
I Carry It in My Heart..

[[ My Loves and Hates ]]

I Love the simple pleasures in Life..
And I basically hate Nothin' actually..
Cause' I choose Happiness in e beginning..
And Every Happiness brings with it..
Unhappiness..
But it is with Unhappiness..
That you learn about..
True Happiness..

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