[[*my 6 cents worth]]

Saturday, June 28, 2008

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26 Sept 2006

that's the date of my last post in this secret blog of mine.

it's near to two years since i posted my thoughts.

it's not that i have forgotten this little space of mine. it's just that, i have closed the chapter some time back and did not want to spend any spare time thinking back on the past.

i have a powerpoint presentation of near to 50 slides, containing of my thoughts and notes for Mark. it was a compilation of over a year that i did whenever i thought of him. it contained pictures and things that really mattered then.

and about a year ago, on a fine evening, i decided to put a stop to all and deleted the powerpoint slides.

i had planned to give it to him but decided against it.

there ain't any point, really. what i wanted was love but i did not even know what he wanted. was he even able to give me a kind of love i deserve or wanted?

did it all even mattered to him? that i spent nights crying? and days wondering why, why and why?

in the end, i guess the best way to deal with it was to read it through one last time and delete it permanently from my computer.

i did it and since that day, i had not looked back.

i am glad that i am moving on well in life now.

this blog will not be deleted though. it will act as a reminder for me to treasure love.

now looking through my posts, i am still rather amazed how much i can blog in terms of thoughts.

all along, i had a question in mind for Mark.

i recently found out a way to answer my question. but i''ll rather not pursue it.

i know i'll never get an answer. but it's ok. it would hurt lesser when you know less.

"were you married when you held my hands?"

another 6 cents thoughts at|6/28/2008 07:51:00 PM|

[[ The Writer... ]]

a Simple SomeOne..
who Hides behind a Mask called..
'6 Cents Worth'..
for a Space called my Own...
Somewhere out there but yet Within...

[[ The Writer's Note... ]]

Here is e deepest Secret nobody knows..
Here is e Root of e Root..
And e Bud of e Bud..
And e Sky of e Sky..
Of a Tree Called Life..
Which grows Higher..
Than e Soul can Hope or Mind can Hide..
N dis is e Wonder tt's Keepin e Stars Apart..
I Carry Your Heart..
I Carry It in My Heart..

[[ My Loves and Hates ]]

I Love the simple pleasures in Life..
And I basically hate Nothin' actually..
Cause' I choose Happiness in e beginning..
And Every Happiness brings with it..
Unhappiness..
But it is with Unhappiness..
That you learn about..
True Happiness..

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